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wonderful day!

2005-07-29T22:10:00.000-07:00

I HAD A WONDERFUL DAY TODAY!! =) AND I THANK GOD FOR THAT...FOR ALWAYS MAKING MY DAY WONDERFUL!

Being optimistic.

2005-07-28T23:10:00.000-07:00

Goodevening Bloggie!! =)

hmm, someone just told me that my blog is the saddest one that she has come upon with so far..haha..so here..imma try to make a HAPPY entry tonight. imma also try to be a lil OPTIMISTIC tonight.hehe..=) ok? so here...

I Thank GOD for...

...giving me a family like what I've already got

...letting me pass in all of my exams so far

...guiding me always

...not forsaking me even for just a single day

...always providing for me and my family

...giving me a great class (1-PTB)

...blessing me with a WONDERFUL life

...always forgiving me of my sins

...everything that HE has done for me

...everything that HE has given me

Simply Demanding

2005-07-25T15:24:00.000-07:00

TO: Someone...

FROM AN EXPECTANT LOVER

by: Czarmayne Chug

I LOVE YOU..BUT how come I can't feel the love that I want to receive from you?
You have said those three words to me a lotta times already BUT how come I can't feel it?
Am I just too demanding?
Am I just expecting too much from you?

I want YOU to be here with me always
I want YOU here beside me...
to comfort me and to LOVE me.
BUT how come you're not?
YOU're near, YET sooo FAR...

Is it that your LOVE is already here beside me but I am just too demanding?
And because of that, I can't see what YOU are already sacrificing?
BECAUSE of expecting tooo much from you that I already became blinded to what you are GIVING?
And I see that as being NOT enough?
Or is it the other way around?
Is it because you just don't give your best to satusfy me?
Is it because YOu really don't love me?
And that I am just your "GF" and not your lifetime partner?
Why can't I answer all of these?
WHy is that when I am asking you these things all you can say is "I'M SORRY"?
Why can't I have an explanation from you?
WHY WHY WHY?

2005-07-25T12:39:00.000-07:00

You know what, bloggie? I have missed you sooo much! =) hihi...

So..it's been a month now, since I haven't written on this blog of mine. Hmm..I don't know what came over me that I began writing again. Well, the obvious reason is B-O-R-E-D-O-M-E..
Ok, umm, lemme start by sharing with you my college life. First thing of all, ALL OF MY FRIENDS THERE ARE GREAT! They are sooo fun to be with.. and They're not just there in good times but they are also there whenever I have problems or when I need something. What else? hmm, all the teachers there are wonderful! I never thought that college would be this FUN and I thought that I would never really enjoy it but I was wrong.. College is the total opposite of what I thought about it. Hopefully, I would pass my five-year course and continue with med proper if that is part of what God has already planned for me. That's it for now! I am eating right now, that's why I can't think of anything much to write BUT eat! =p
Oh and I would like to greet my friend macky because I know that YOU are very eager to read this..wahahaha

Confused!

2005-06-05T21:56:00.000-07:00

I'm soo confused. *sigh* COULD SOMEBODY PLEASE HELP ME? oh, and, I'm sorry, my friends, if I haven't been updating my blog lately. I'm just not in the mood. That's all.

Free Writing: My Thoughts...

2005-05-23T22:28:00.000-07:00

Free Writing: My Thoughts...
The World. What's happening to our WORLD at this present time? The evil things are surfacing the news all around the world. Heinous crimes are rampant nowadays. In every corners of the world, there are lots and lots of killings that's happening and have already happened. Suicidal rates are are growing faster and faster every second. Prostitutes have already taken up a large percent of our world's population. As time goes by, the world is not a safe place to live in, from the very air that we breathe in to the living things that we trust. Is this "the world" which GOD has intended it to be from the very start that HE had created it?
I was wondering what was it like during Adam and Eve's time or Noah's and Moses' times? Or what would I feel if I could really walk and talk with Jesus personally? *sigh* The evilness of men had driven HIM to be far away from us. I mean physically. Although I know that all of these are part of GOD's plan for all of us. I just wish that somehow I am already living during those times that Jesus is walking here on earth.
Maybe the world before is such a nice nice place to live in. There's a lot of fresh air for us to breathe in, a lot of GREEN trees everywhere, and a lot of nice people whom you could talk to sensibly, people with manners and breedings, people who are really innocent and honest, people who are simply humans and not ANIMALS. *Sorry to put it that way, but that's the truth and the truth really hurts, I know.*
Thinking of these things made me realized that the world today is getting worst every second of a minute, every minute of an hour, and every hour of the day. I also noticed that BAD people had already influenced and is still continuing on influencing a lot of GOOD people to do BAD things as well so that there would be only a few good men who will be left in here.
I don't know how I could help but I really wanted to. SO if ever I could do anything, could you please inform me immediately? I am begging you to encourage me on thinking that we are not really hopeless after all, 'coz that's what I really feel about this world right now.
Please don't think that I am going nuts in here. Hmm...or maybe...I am really becoming like one. *sigh* One could never really know what boredom could bring to people. Anyway, I missed eating strawberries..*yummmeehhh!* So, if anybody there who is reading this and who has a good heart of sharing, this is sorta like a "PARINIG" to you. Hehe.
Hmm...I just wanna share that last Sunday, I finally went to church. I felt being revived. It's a good feeling though. I really wanna sing praises to God. I love those praise and worship songs.
I have come up with a list of what I miss, what I don't like with my attitude and habits (hopefully I could change them), and what I HATE about life, and here it goes.
I MISS...
+ him
+ eating strawberries
+imported sampaloc from Thailand (the spicy ones)
+going to TAIWAN
+going to school
+my room

Bad Attitudes and Habits...

+being mataray/masungit MOST of the time

+swearing

+being lazy

+being a crammer

+being stubborn

+my "spending a lot" sickness

+being cold to some people

+being insensitive

I HATE...

+hurting people unintentionally (I don't know how to stop this)

+my bad attitude and habits

+to see this poor country of ours on becoming unproductive and hopeless as day goes by

YOU!

2005-05-23T21:32:00.000-07:00

YOU

by: ME

YOU are my life.

YOU are my happiness.

YOU are my inspiration.

YOU are my pride.

YOU are the reason that I keep going on with my life.

YOU are my all.

YOU are my everything.

YOU are the only one who could put smiles on my lips.

but...

where are YOU?

and...

who are YOU?

stupid me

2005-05-19T00:11:00.000-07:00

It was stupid of me to let YOU go.
The moment that YOU have confessed it to me.
The moment that YOU have spake those words.
The moment that YOU have those feelings for me.
I shouldn't have let that M-O-M-E-N-T pass
...SO SO SO SO stupid of me!

MAN of My Dreams

2005-05-11T17:30:00.000-07:00

MAN of My Dreams

by: Czarmayne Chug

Finding you is so hard to do.

O, When will you come, my prince?

I have been waiting ever since.

My heart is yearning to be loved by you.

Being with you is all I've ever dreamt of.

Thinking that you're my knight in shining armor,

Who could help me escape from these miseries.

Who could save me from the loneliness of my world.

There are a lot who have fallen,

But none whom I really like.

I haven't chosen yet, so please hurry up...

'Coz it's you whom I've been waiting for.

You're sweet voice that will put me to sleep.

You're manly behavior that will make my bones tremble.

You're gentle ways that will put a smile on my lips.

You're unwaivering faith on GOD that will sweep me off my feet.

These are what I've been longing for all my life.

O GOD, Can you please give me a hint as to when will my prince come?

Just a single hint could make my heart leap.

Grant my wish, O Lord, to satisfy this lil' dried heart of mine.

Kyte signing out...WAITING...

Draw With ME..

2005-05-09T05:16:00.000-07:00

My Old Self Again

2005-05-08T20:51:00.000-07:00

Hmm, okey, so i was back to my old self again. I'm so sorry for letting you, whoever you may be, read in PURE yet baluktot, i think, Filipino. Hey, I wasn't that good in Filipino, but at least I've tried, so give me some credit for TRYING. I wanted to apologize for what I have written on my previous post. I was just carried away by my emotions. I'll try to control it next time.

....SORRY....

I haven't come up with a new article/entry yet. My brain cells are not working properly due to some serious problems. More entries coming soon. hehe..

DAMNED!

2005-05-05T20:07:00.000-07:00

HEY! To all of you who are reading my POSTS..."i-highlight nyo to! i-highlight nyo to! para mabasa nyO!" *wink* *wink*

WAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Gosh, imma try to make this entry in pure Filipino SO that YOU GUYS could digest each and every word that im gonna write here..para di na kayo mahirapan diba? hahaha..

Omigoooshh!! Ang dami pala nagbabasa ng BLOG ko..hindi naman sa pag mamayabang noh, pero ngayon ko lang nalaman na may isang tao palang nagpupumilit na ipabasa yung blog ko sa ibang mga tao! SALAMAT sa iyo dahil na-aadvertise mo yung BLOG ko.=p ipagpatuoy mo sana iyang gawain na yan at baka mabigyan pa kita ng reward.

HMMMM........

Ang hirap maging mabait. Hayy...Pag naging mabait ka, ang dami-daming umiisip ng masasama tungkol sayo. Kung hindi ka natatawagan na PLASTIK, ika'y inaapi. Inaabuso ang pagka mabait mo. Bakit ba ganon palagi? nakakawalang ganang maging mabait! LALO ka pang sisiraan ng ibang mga tao dyan sa tabi-tabi kahit na wala ka namang ginagawa talagang masama. Saan ka pa lulugar? haha, ang saya noh? GO with the flow nalang..nakikisama nalang ako sa daloy ng mga pangyayari..

HAYYYY..........

KAIBIGAN. kala mo mga kaibigan sila....PERO hindi pala. grabe.. isang segundo, kaibigan mo sya at aawayin ang kaaway mo. Magtutulungan kayo ng ilang araw. Magdadamayan. Maya-maya pala'y kaaway mo na. At ang masakit pa doon ay kakampi na pala siya ng kaaway mo. Mundo nga nman ngayon, OO. Ang gulo-gulo na. WalA talagang permanente sa mundong ito..LAHAT plastikan. haha.. nakakatawa nalang tuloy. Nakakalungkot din isiping, may panahong ipinaglaban mo sila dati dahil KAIBIGAN pa sila noon, ngunit ngayon ay bigla nalang naglaho ang pagsasamahan na inaakala mong magtatagal,...mawawala nalang bigla ng walang pasabi..ng walang explanation, ng walang kadahil-dahilanan. SALAMAT pa rin sa iyo, kaibigan.

AT SA INYO NAMAN...

SANA naman kung may galit kayo sakin... eh sabihin nyo sa harapan ko!! diba? para naman alam ko. Hindi yung ganyan. PERO kung ganyan talaga ang gusto nyo.. SIGE! GAME ako dyan. haha..AKO PA! =p yung patago lahat. oo nga, mukang mas masaya yung ganyan. YUNG patago, isa-isang naghahanap ng kakampi..naghahanap ng HATAK at sabay sabay kayong maninira ng patalikod..haha..PWEDE PWEDE...

PARA SAYO/ SAINYO....

MASAYA ba talagang mambastos ng BABAE, ha?? MANDIRE naman na kayo sa mga sarili nyo! GRABE! WAG nyong ilabas yung kalibugan nyo sa akin! DAMI diyang mga nagpapa gamit ng LIBRE! YUNG mga sa tabi tabi nyo lang na mga babae na konting tuwad lang eh kita na ang kaluluwa! YUN yung mga bastusin nyO! AT bakit nahihiya kayong umamin? EH sanay naman kayo sa ganyanan diba? KAYA ikaw/ kayo.09224809614.o kung sino man kayo...TUMIGIL NA KAYO!

PARA LANG SA KAALAMAN NYO....

MAY NAGTEXT sa akin kagabi..etong number na to..

09224809614

GUSTO niyo malaman kung anu sabi ng BASTOS na to??

"Hi, wanna hav a sexm8? txt/col me..."

parang ganyan..i can't really remember exactly word per word what this maniac has sent me.

SANA EH MAHIYA KA NMAN NA NGAYON!

FINALLY...

Minsan lang talaga ako magPOST ng ganito, halata nman sa previous ko na mga entries eh. NAPUNO lang kasi siguro talaga ako sa lahat lahat. KUNG kelan nananahimik na ako, tska pa ako ginaganito! hayyy... SANA nalang pag nasira ulit yan, wag kayong hahabol-habol..yun lang naman..SALAMAT sa mga totoo kong kaibigan!...=)..

LOVE=HURT

2005-04-20T22:42:00.000-07:00

People come and people go.

Some often hurt you while some were hurt by you.

Why does LOVE always end up like this?

I thought that LOVE is a special gift from GOD?

Then , why are we often get HURT when LOVE is involve?

I can't sleep last night because something is bothering me.

And guess what?

It's about LOVE again.

tsk tsk tsk..

"Why can't we just stop our hearts from beating, huh?"

And so, after hours and hours of pondering,

I came up with these equations...

LOVE = HAPPY...HURT

LOVE + #'s = HURT

I just realized that when someone loves you,
YOU tend to not love him/her back

and you would end up hurting that person,

well, not intentionally, of course.

It'a a fact that humans have their own limitations.

And when the day comes that that person is tired already of waiting,

YOU would miss him/her, YOU would be uneasy,

and eventually YOU would realize that, in fact,

YOU really love that person.

But, oh-oh, it's too late now,

that person has already somebody else to give his/her love to.

When I woke up this morning,

SOMETHING came into my mind.

I think I have found the answer to everything I have been pondering on.

Maybe, we find LOVE that way because

that wasn't really LOVE.

LOVE is a SPECIAL gift from GOD

and I know that GOD wants us to WAIT real hard for our TRUE LOVE.

TRUE LOVE WAITS...

We get hurt by LOVE because we are just humans.

We know only little about it.

God didn't permit us YET to fully understand LOVE.

And MAYBE we get hurt by it because

we don't have the approval of God.

We dont know the reason,

but for whatever reason it may be,

I know that my God knows WHO and WHAT is BEST for all of us.

If we go against HIM then that's when we get HURT.

We can't say that God is unfair because in the first place,

if it weren't by HIM, we don't have this thing called LOVE.

We should, in fact, be grateful.

LET ME SHARE WITH YOU A TXT QUOTE THAT SOMEONE HAS SENT TO ME.

"Wag mong paglaruan ang taong mahal ka, inintindi at ipaglaban ka. Baka dumating yung oras na sabihin niyang..

'IM JUST A TOY TO YOU! BENTA MO NLNG KAYA AKO?!' "

THIS struck me sooo hard. BTW, this is the reason that I wrote this entry.

Letters for my friends

2005-04-14T22:09:00.000-07:00

To The One I HAD Loved...
You just don't know how much I am also missing you. It seems that I don't care for you anymore and that for the past few months I have been very cold with you, but you're wrong, I still do care and love you. It's just that I don't know myself anymore. I am very sorry for how I am treating you lately. I , myself, don't know how to stop myself from doing that. MAYBE there are just things that can't really be recovered anymore or MAYBE if you will just give it some time and lend it your patience, it will be recovered soon. It really saddens me whenever you're trying real hard for us to meet again. Things really have changed a lot between us. There's this SOMETHING inside of me that is stopping me from getting back with you again and I don't know what it is. I hope that you'd understand. Once again, I want to apologize to you. I don't know yet if this is the end for both of us or this is just a part of the trials that will make us strong in the future.

Songs That Were Dedicated To Me..

2005-04-14T02:31:00.000-07:00

These are the songs with Lyrics that were dedicated to me by my Special FRIENDS...

When I Met You

by: the Apo Hiking Society

There I was an empty piece of a shell,

Just mindin' my own world;

Without even knowin' what love and life were all about.

Then you came,

You brought me out of the shell;

You gave the world to me

And before I knew,

There I was so in love with you.

You gave me a reason for my being

And I love what I'm feelin'

You gave me a meaning to my life,

Yes, I've gone beyond existing

And it all began when I met you.

I love the touch of your hair

And when I look in your eyes

I just know, I know I'm on to something good

And I'm sure my love for you will endure

Your love will light up my world;

And take all my cares away with the aching part of me.

You gave me a reason for my being

And I love what I'm feelin'

You gave me a meaning to my life,

Yes, I've gone beyond existing

And it all began when I met you.

You taught me how to love,

You showed me how tomorrow and today

My life is diff'rent from the yesterday;

And you, you taught me how to love

And darling I will always cherish you

Today, tomorrow and forever.

And I'm sure when evening comes around

I know we'll be making love like never before;

My love, who could ask for more?

You gave me a reason for my being

And I love what I'm feelin'

You gave me a meaning to my life,

Yes, I've gone beyond existing

And it all began when I met you.

When I met you.

You gave me a reason for my being

And I love what I'm feelin'

You gave me a meaning to my life,

Yes, I've gone beyond existing

And it all began when I met you.

When I met you.

This was dedicated to me by my Teddy Bear. *wink* *wink*

A Little Bit

by: M.Y.M.P.

I was kinda hesitant to tell you

Should I let you know

I was never really like this before

Need I say more

Or maybe I'm confused when you are near me

I don't know what to do or I should be

There's only one thing in my mind

That's you and me

I'm a little bit of crazy

I'm a little bit of a fool

I'm a little bit of lonely

I'm a little bit of all

Oh, I need a cure

Just a little bit of you

And I will fall

I'm always on the run to see you

Would you allow me to

It wasn't my attention to hurt you

This feeling is true

I'm just a little bit of crazy

I'm a little bit of a fool

I'm a little bit of lonely

I'm a little bit of all

Oh, I need a cure

Just a little bit of you

And I will fall

This song was dedicated to me by my Kooshie.

Negative Things

by: Selwyn

Listen baby

I wonder why sometimes we fall apart oh yeah

Together we are so wonderfull yeah baby

And every single day i pray, that really things shouldnt never be this way

Im only trynna be a better man

Why then do you see all the negative things, in me?

Cos all i ever do is try to be, all that i can be

Girl you know your hurting me, all the things you say to me

As i lie at night im imagining things, how it used to be, girl you know your hurting me

What am i to do with a broken heart?

All the time everybody say that you and me are over

But i know were meant to be together for eternity

Was it untrue what we promised each other?

Baby my heart keeps telling me

That it shouldnt be this way forever

Im only trying to be a better man

Why then do you see all the negative things, in me?

Cos all i ever do is try to be, all that i can be

Girl you know your hurting me, all the things you pray to me

As i lie at night im imagining things, how it used to be, girl you know your hurting me

What am i to do with a broken heart?

Girl remember when, we made our promises?

That we would be together through-out every single thing

Now im only trynna be a better man, but you've never noticed that

Girl i truely love, to be around you

And baby ill give you anything you want me to

Cos i know this might be hard for you,

And i know that we will be

Why then do you see all the negative things, in me?

Cos all i ever do is try to be, all that i can be

Girl you know your hurting me, all the things you pray to me

As i lie at night im imagining things, how it used to be, girl you know your hurting me

What am i to do with a broken heart?

This was dedicated to me by "Chubby Cheeks". =)

Betrayed...

2005-04-09T04:28:00.000-07:00

Have you ever been betrayed by your friends, of like almost 14 years? Have you ever felt the feeling that almost all of your classmates were mad at you because of SOMETHING? And that SOMETHING is being kept from you? They kept on saying things about you behind your back without you even knowing the reason why they are mad at you. WHAT?! They just like to say bad things about you and ruin your life, huh? YEAH, MAYBE YOU GUYS JUST DON'T HAVE ANYTHING TO TALK ABOUT, SO YOU WANT TO TALK ABOUT ME? about how many boys like me and how many of them are courting me? about all of my gimiks? well, everything about me! Let me say this to YOU GUYS... PLEASE stop what you're DOING. YOU even called me "devilish superior"..why? WHO ARE YOU? ARE you an angel that was sent from HEAVEN? OMIGOOSH..I forgot..YOU guys are a bunch of saints nga pala. YOU GUYS were like soo HOLY and all diba? YOu know all about the BIBLE, you're active in the church. BUT BUT BUT..there is a big question mark on your CHARACTERS! You're a bunch of hypocrites! YOU like to judge ME! YOU like to talk behind my back! YOU like to say bad things about ME behind my back! WHY? YOU guys can't tell it straight to me, huh? BAKIT?? PARA hindi masira yung reputation nyo? PARA tingin pa rin sa inyo ng mga tao is yung sobrang HOLY, GOOD CHILD, GOOD STUDENT, and all kayo?? GRR!! HYPOCRITES! WHAT have I done to all of you guys para ganituhin nyo ako? NAGKAMPIKAMPIHAN PA KAYONG LAHAT! =( grabe.."look at the PLANK on your OWN eyes before looking at the speck of sawdust on your neighbor's eyes!"

I hate COPYCATS!

2005-04-05T00:06:00.000-07:00

Why can't some people have their own way of expressing themselves? Why are they having a hard time finding their own identity? And the worst of all, why do they have to copy other people, like me, so that they would have what they call "THEIR OWN" identity? WHY?? Why can't they just invent or think of a NEW and UNIQUE style, just so that they wouldn't copy other people's anymore? Is it really hard for them, huh? Well, to think that they are copying my STYLE, I realized just now that, in fact, I should be flattered. Wanna know why? Cause they are following/copying me, not ME copying THEM. tsk tsk tsk.. I LOVE YOU! THANK YOU!
Hmm...what else? Oh, and I want to apologize for what I have said, ok ok , written yesterday about HER. I was just carried away by my emotions..I'm just a human being, you know. LOVE YOU TOO, WHOEVER you ARE, gurl! and watch your words next time...

For You Again!

2005-04-04T17:53:00.000-07:00

This is also for YOU!

2005-04-04T15:10:00.000-07:00

This is for YOU, gurl!

2005-04-04T13:04:00.000-07:00

Hmm, this is for you GURL!
Sorry but, my emotions just
forced me to write this one..

Why do insecure Girlfriends like YOU
have to put down other people like ME?
I mean, what did I do to you,huh?
check YOUR bf, gurl...
CHECK your BF if HE is still happy with you.
Check HIM. if HE really LOVES you.
and FYI...we're just CLOSE FRIENDS, ok?
Stop buggin me!!!
coz if you dont STOP...
hayy...dont make me do the "THING"
that you will regret the most...
I CAN do IT,
but I am just respecting the two of you
PLUS he's not really my type.
THAT's why dont force me to do IT.
Wahahaha!!!
SINO KAYA INGGIT SA ATING DALAWA?
and IM HAPPY being single, just to remind you..
GURLS these days..tsk tsk tsk..

Facts About Me

2005-03-31T18:09:00.000-08:00

----------FACTS ABOUT YOU----------
Birth Date: 82888
Name on Birth Certificate: Czarmayne Chan Chug
Location: manila
Colour of eyes: brown
Height: 5'4
Shoe size: 7-8
----------HAVE YOU EVER----------
Ever been so drunk you blacked out : nah
Put a body part on fire for amusement: nop
Been in a car accident: fortunately, not yet.=)
Been hurt emotionally: yep
Kept a secret from everyone: yeah
Had an imaginary friend: nup
Had a crush on a teacher: nahh
Ever thought an animated character was hot? nopp
----------FAVOURITES----------
Shampoo: any
Colour: it depends on the thing..
Day/Night: night!
Summer/Winter: is it possible to answer both?..
Cartoon Characters: rugrats
Food: Japs.
Fave Ice Cream: dirty ice cream!
Fave Subject: Math, Science, History
Fave Drink: YAKULT..*wink* *wink*
----------RIGHT NOW----------
Wearing: white shirt (Karl's) and short black short.
Thinking bout: what to put in herre
Talking to: no one
What are you listening to: the silence of the room
----------IN THE LAST 24 HRS----------
Cried: nopee
laundry: nahh
Drove a car: no
----------DO YOU BELIEVE IN----------
Yourself: at times
Friends: not all
God: OF COURSE
Tooth Fairy: nupp, hehe..

Destiny /Fate: nahh.
Angels: yup
Ghosts: yeah.
Life after death: i think..
Americans landing on the moon: i haven't seen the video yet..poor me.
----------FRIENDS, EX-FRIENDS AND LIFE----------
Who's the loudest: Marv.
Weirdest: Bryan
Funniest: Marv
Shyest: Angelie
Who do you cry with: rojii, anj
Who do you go to for advices: roji, anj
----------LOVE----------
Boyfriend/Girlfriend?: already single
Crush: HIM
Ever regretted going out with someone: nope
----------!TELL THE TRUTH!----------
Would you work in McDonalds?: summer job, yep! why not, for experience.
Bitch about someone: yahh.
What's the best feeling in the world: being in LOVE with someone, especially with GOD.
Worst Feeling: Loneliness...

The Sonnet

2005-03-31T17:30:00.000-08:00

I took the test which NIXI has told me to answer...and here's the result...

The Sonnet (Deliberate Gentle Love Dreamer)
Romantic, hopeful, and composed. You are the Sonnet. Get it? Composed?
Sonnets want Love and have high ideals about it. They're conscientious people, caring & careful. You yourself have deep convictions, and you devote a lot of thought to romance and what it should be. This will frighten away most potential mates, but that's okay, because you're very choosy with your affections anyway. You'd absolutely refuse to date someone dumber than you, for instance. Lovers who share your idealized perspective, or who are at least willing to totally throw themselves into a relationship, will be very, very happy with you. And you with them. You're already selfless and compassionate, and with the right partner, there's no doubt you can be sensual, even adventurously so. You probably have lots of female friends, and they have a special soft spot for you. Babies do, too, at the tippy-top of their baby skulls.

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Little Miss Perfectionist

2005-03-20T01:54:00.000-08:00

Ever since I was a child,

I have always been

striving for perfection.

May it be in my studies, work,

or anything.

Yes, I'm a Perfectionist.

I want everything to be perfect,

well, at least, almost perfect.

Before, being a perfectionist was OK.

In fact, my "being a perfectionist"

had been rewarded accordingly.

It hade made my parents proud of me

and of course, I myself, was also proud.

Then came the time

when I met THEM.

Each of THEM has their own

UNIQUE qualities,

showing emotions in their own way.

Some are mayabang,

some are malambing,

some are funny,

some are cute,

some are FEELING,

some are just so-so,

some have a mixture of some qualities,

while some have none.

This was the time

when the problem started.

I had a hard time choosing.

My "being a perfectionist" took over.

"I don't like him cause he's too short."

"He's OK, but he's so mayabang!"

"He's soo full of himself! Argh!"

"He's soo malambing,

but he's not my type."

Finally, I met this guy...

He's not really my type but

he caught my eye.

And I let go of my "being a perfectionist"

well, just for a while.

And so..

After days and weeks and months

of getting to know each other,

we became more than friends.

At first, we we're ok.

I'm sure you know THE FEELING

when you're with someone special.

But..

After 2 years,

my "being a perfectionist"

started to take over again.

"SOMETHING is lacking..."

And for the longest time,

I have been stopping myself

from doing IT...

and then someone whispered to my ears..

"You know Czarm,

you can't have everything."

Missing You..

2005-03-16T17:32:00.000-08:00

Miss You

by Raymund Ryan

Miss you...

Everyday and every night,

this feeling I'd fight.

Try as I might but I won't win,

I surrender, I'd die.

You are winning here alright.

Every morning

when the sun would shine on me,

I'd flash a smile but deep inside,

I feel so sad and lonely.

I need you here and now.

I miss you.

It's crazy to pretend that

I don't think of you.

The more this feeling

just seems to grow and grow.

I miss you.

Oh how much longer can I hold on to?

maybe you can come and tell me

that you miss me too.

Miss you...

All I want is for this love to to last forever.

You walked away, never came back,

oh I tried to recover,

I can't bear it boy, alright.

When I hear a song

that we had used to share,

I'll try as I might to hide the tears,

and when the pain is over,

I'll wish that you are near.

Miss you...

The long lost poem.

2005-03-15T16:50:00.000-08:00

I wrote this poem, I think, last year. And I dedicated this to sum1 =(

A part of me is screaming.
"Am I in hell?" I asked.
Silence was the reply.
I feel helpless,
no one seems to care.

A part of me is hoping.
"Am I in hell?" I asked again.
Silence was still the reply.
I feel shattered,
no one seems to care.

Then you came into my life...

A part of me was relieved.
"What happened?" I asked.
"Baby, we are gonna get through
this together," he answered.
I feel loved, no one has ever made
me feel this way before.
-kyte

Finishing Well

2005-03-11T17:19:00.000-08:00

"It doesn't really matter

how you live your life,

what matters most to God is

how you finish it."

This is what the speaker

on our PROM told us.

After hearing these words,

I immediately reflected upon myself.

"Have I lived a holy life for the LORD?

Would God be proud of me when

the time comes that we meet?

Can I finish my life according

to HIS will?"

The speaker said that

people won't remember your achievements

here on earth.

They won't remember

how many medals have you won,

how many awards have you received,

or how many certificates have you got.

And God is also not that interested in those.

What matters most to HIM is

how did you serve Him here on earth

even up to death?

"Can I serve him even if

it would cost me my life?"

1 year from now,

I'd be a freshman in college.

5 years from now,

I'd be a Physical Therapist.

10 years from now,

I'd be a doctor.

It's up to me

if I'm gonna use

the talents that God

had bestowed upon me

WISELY.

I may be successful in my career

but I know that

that doesn't really matter to HIM.

What matters is

how many have I helped

or saved during my stay

here on earth.

Confused..

2005-03-09T19:28:00.000-08:00

Why can't we stop ourselves from falling in love with someone?

We were given by God

a chance to choose,

a chance to love,

and of course

a chance to be hurt.

BUT,what if...

you've been hurt by someone,

someone whom you'll never expect to hurt you,

who is...

YOURSELF?

HE is there...

right beside YOU,

ready to comfort YOU

and to love YOU.

HE is YOURS,

but somehow..

YOU want something more

as if..

something is missing.

then came him,

him, him, him, him,

him, him, and him.

but YOU stayed strong..

and all remained well.

one day,

out of nowhere

HIM came into the picture

but HIM has a SHE.

YOU pretended to be happy

and...

HIM stayed nice and sweet

"Waaaaaaaah!"

YOUR heart is shouting,

shouting in confusion..

YOUR heart wanted to explode!

is it YOUR fault?

is it the fault of HIM?

or is it really the fault of HE?

who is to blame

for what is happening right now?

Mind over Heart vs. Heart over Mind

2005-03-01T02:22:00.000-08:00

"Nag-aaway ang utak and puso...

Sabi ng utak sa puso:

'Kalimutan mo na siya! Tanga mo talaga!'

Sagot ng puso:

'Kala ko ba matalino ka?

Paano ko makakalimutan eh lagi mog iniisip!' "

hayy..love love love.

what do we know bout love?

we are just teenagers..

we like,

we adore,

we have crushes,

we "love",
then we get hurt!

is that always how things will gonna end?

the elders are always telling us

that we are just a bunch of kids

who don't know anything about LOVE.

and they are like barricades that hinder us to love.

saying: "We are just preventing you from getting hurt."

who are they to judge us?

who are they to stop us?

the more that they stop us,

the more that we repel.

and the more that we repel

the more that we explore.

we try to love..

at first,

we have those "kilig" and happy moments,

we sometimes go through "tampuhan"

then after a while,

the "BREAK UP!" happens

and we get hurt.

OUCH!

after getting hurt,

we still think about them...

HOW STUPID!

here comes the elders again.

saying: "Papunta ka pa lang, pabalik na kami."

we tend to not listen and instead ask advices from other teenagers

who we think can understand us more

But do they?

we then just try to pretend and act STRONG.

but deep inside we're breaking up into pieces.

So, the final question is "Are you MIND over HEART or HEART over MIND?"

Chinese EXAM...

2005-02-27T22:56:00.000-08:00

2285

my maid is waking me up..

"mayaaaaa naaaaa!!"

hayy, i can't get myself up,

i wonder why...

*winks at my 3-way buddies*

btw, i wanna thank them for helping me

in my Filipino assignment.

another day in school,

we just had our CHINESE exam

and fortunately, my brain cooperated with me

at around 9.30, we were dismissed

and while waiting for my rents to pick us (wit bry) up

we checked our PHYSICS proj. : the house model

we also looked at our other classmates' works

and we were like sooo amazed that we're soo GOOD

finally my rents came already

and Rudolph asked me if he can hitch wit us

and i said "ok"

then we went to Dayritt's for a lunch

at first, rudolph is hesitant to join us

but mommy pulled him into the restaur

and so, he didn't have a choice but to eat wit us

RUDOLPH, IS THAT YOU?? haha..

after eating,

we went home already

and we dropped Rudolph off at Mabini

AT last..

IM HOME AGAIN

i like my ROOM, i LOVE my room.

i immediately opened my pc and

connected to the internet.

i saw rojii on my ym list

and so i chatted wit her.

She showed me her blogspot account

and i thought of making one too

but i suddently felt sleepy

and i fell asleep from 2.30 upto 7.30

I have regained my strength again

and here i am now, making my first post